Wednesday, 08 July 2009
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Who Am I?
At times, I'll admit I don't really have a clue.
I probably should be ashamed of thinking like this, because by 21, you're supposed to know who exactly you are. Occasionally, I will say that I have a pretty good idea, but other times, I will say the complete opposite.
I've realised that I can be perfectionistic when it comes down to it...I know that no one is perfect but there are times when I wish my life was a little more organised, or wish that I was more attractive. I'm sure most people have felt like that at some point; when someone does something to you that seems unfair and wrong, it makes you question, "Am I not good enough for anyone?" And yes, I have asked myself that MANY times.
I think by wanting to be perfect, I want to be in control. And sometimes it feels like nothing is under control.
Yeah, I pretty much sound like I am rambling right now.
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Comments (10)
yeah, right... you won't know, completely, when you're 25.
there's always something to learn about yourself. embrace it!
@TheBigShowAtUD -
That much is true.
who are you so far?
@TheBigShowAtUD -
To be honest, I'm not sure. I've realised that I can be pretty complex, as well as mysterious. Don't know if that counts as anything, though.
sure it does! complexity and mystery are good things. alluring, some might say.
@TheBigShowAtUD -
That much is true. I myself consider being mysterious a good thing, I'd rather be that than be overly open.
I kind of like being figured out.
you like being studied? haha. me too. i'm bad at volunteering info and being easy to read.
@TheBigShowAtUD -
LOL.
I don't mind volunteering info, but there are times when I can be secretive.
My most recent ex (who I was with for a week, at most) even noticed I was mysterious, but then again, that is his doing, as no one knows anyone else in a week. I asked if he wanted to get to know me better, and he was like "I don't know anything about you." Not exactly the answer I was looking for.
he really dropped the ball, right now. NOT what i would have said.
@TheBigShowAtUD -
I'll agree with that. I don't think he meant to be harsh but it was as if he viewed being mysterious as a bad thing.
What would you have said?